After his devastating actions in Accidentally On Purpose, Kyle Sterling is trying to move on. He has lost the love of his life and he does not believe he is worthy of ever being loved again.
Lily Whitman has been devastated by the ultimate betrayal and later tragedy hits her heart full force. She doubts she will ever be able to give her heart to anyone again. She hides her own demons behind a wall of colorful hair, piercings, tattoos and a style and attitude that is all her own.
Kyle and Lily find themselves thrown together when Lily takes a position at Sterling Corporation after her place of employment burned to the ground. Lily is the complete opposite of the type of woman that Kyle has ever had any interest in. Lily is rough around the edges and challenges Kyle at every step. Despite his dick-like disposition and violent past, Lily fights to prove to Kyle that he is worthy – of being loved, and worthy of redemption, but Kyle is afraid of repeating history and he can’t let go of his past…And maybe a very important someone from his past isn’t ready to let go yet either….
We all remember the douche puddle from Accidentally on Purpose, Kyle Sterling. (If you don’t ….you probably shouldn’t be reading this. Just Saying). Some of us were sad that Kyle and Emmy didn’t end up together, some were happy. My heart was sad because someone got hurt, period. Someone had a not so happy ending. I was extremely happy to hear that Kyle was getting his own book and I had my fingers crossed that he didn’t f*ck everything up in this book.
We pick up right when Kyle gets out of rehab. He is on a mission to find Emmy. He can’t believe the bullsh!t that has happened and he feels like a loser, who’s worthy of nothing. He can’t remember what he did to Emmy. While on his mission to find Emmy he comes across her bar manager, Lily. Lily is a funky, tatted and pierced kind-of chic. She doesn’t take sh!t from anybody. So, when Kyle walks into the bar she braces herself, because around him she’s a blubbering mess. She’s always had a soft spot for her boss’s man. But something is amiss, because Kyle looks like sh!t and Emmy is MIA. Lily steps up to the task of taking care of Mr. Ass. Lily discovers some dark things about Kyle but, what’s scarier than those revelations, is the fact that Lily isn’t fazed by it. She’s just terrified of getting her heart broken. Lily escapes that night with her heart in tacked, only to be thrown right to the shark again. Losing her job a few years later, she turns to a friend for help. She inadvertently ends up as Kyle’s assistant.
“No! Don’t speak. Almost everything that has come out of that stupid mouth of yours has somehow conflicted with the previous stupid thing you’ve said.”
And so, the battle begins between the feisty woman, and the a$$hole, Kyle. The battle between wanting what you can’t have and letting yourself indulge. These two both have some horrid pasts to overcome. While, I loved Emmy in the first book, I loved Lily just as much. She’s snarky, witty, caring and believe it or not she has her head firmly on her shoulders. She’s a strong person but deep down there’s a cest pool of bad demons haunting her, waiting to surface. I believe that adds to her realness, her sense of realism. She doesn’t sugar coat anything. Lily knows that Kyle is a ticking time bomb but she can’t stay away.
“You know, I actually kind of give a damn what happens to you.”
Kyle is so damaged from his past demons and recent walk through hell that he is barely surviving. He’s haunted and tormented by what he did to Emmy. He’s clean from drugs for the moment, but like they say once an addict, always an addict. He fights his demons on a daily basis and his cravings. He does not feel worthy of anyone’s love. Scum on the bottom of the pond….the douche excrement. He’s the lowest of lows. He broke the one thing he loved most in life, Emmy. Feeling himself falling more and more into Lily, Kyle throws himself into douche mode and pushes her away. He throws himself into finding out what exactly he did to Emmy. This very well could be the blow that knocks him over the edge. Will he be able to leave Emmy in the past?
“Yes, you did awful things, but no one is going to punish you more than yourself, but you can also redeem yourself. If there was no redemption for anyone, then every criminal should just be executed because the time they’ll spend in prison would be pointless. I do believe you can be redeemed, despite your big mouth.”
All the while Lily is there supporting him, loving him unconditionally. She becomes his “little bully”. She helps to keep him in line. But when something bigger comes into the picture, Lily has to stop and think if this life is really for her. Does he love her more than Emmy? In the end risking everything may not be enough.They both have to overcome their pasts. Kyle is always self-sabotaging or believe it or not, self-sacrificing. FEAR of what will happen is enough, to f*ck it all up.
I must say that I fell in love with this story just as I did with the first one. I wasn’t sure if I could feel sorry for Kyle but I do. I grew a soft spot for the man who struggles every day with his addiction and his actions. I am in no way agreeing with what he did. NEVER. But I do believe that people can be redeemed. Nature vs. Nurture. That’s all I am going to say about that one. He and Lily both had a lot to forgive of themselves. She had to learn to let go and do it knowing the pain may take her down. In the end, I believe this book truly defined the word Redemption. I believe both Lily and Kyle had to fight to redeem their lives and their hearts. Can forgiveness heal? Do you believe in redemption? I dare you to read it and if you still don’t feel like Kyle deserves a second chance ….then your heart is stone. LOL! This book deals with real life situations and repercussions. I love Mrs. Davis’s work and will continue to follow her work. Thank you, for another REAL story. I give 5 Redeeming Stars.
About the Author
L.D. Davis was born and raised in a small town in South Jersey where she still resides. She is married with five children and comes from a very large family. L.D. has been writing since the second grade and consistently received encouragement from teachers and friends. L.D. frequently daydreamed about getting published, but did not think the daydream could be realized. It wasn't until early in 2011 after reading the works of a new, self-published author did she begin to believe that she could publish her work. Her first book "Accidentally On Purpose" was published in April of 2012, just days after her 34th birthday. L.D. is very excited to continue offering her imagination in printed form to the public.
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