Title: When It Rains by Lisa De Jong
Release Date: September 27, 2013
Genre: New Adult Contemporary
Blurb
One night changed my
life forever.
Beau Bennett has been my best friend since I can remember. He was my first crush before everything came crashing down, and now he wants more, but it's more than I can give him. Things are different now. I wish I could tell him why, but I can't.
I haven’t told anyone.
I never knew how much I really needed him until the day he left for college, and I was completely alone.
Then one day, Asher Hunt rides into town with his dark, captivating eyes and cocky grin. He doesn't care who I used to be, he's simply breathing life into what’s left. People warn me to stay away from him, but he helps me forget the pain that has held me hostage for so long; something I thought was impossible before he walked into my life.
I’ve been hurt.
I’ve been saved.
And I’ve found hope.
I thought my story was written that night, but now I know it was only a new beginning. Until one secret turns my world upside down…
Again.
Beau Bennett has been my best friend since I can remember. He was my first crush before everything came crashing down, and now he wants more, but it's more than I can give him. Things are different now. I wish I could tell him why, but I can't.
I haven’t told anyone.
I never knew how much I really needed him until the day he left for college, and I was completely alone.
Then one day, Asher Hunt rides into town with his dark, captivating eyes and cocky grin. He doesn't care who I used to be, he's simply breathing life into what’s left. People warn me to stay away from him, but he helps me forget the pain that has held me hostage for so long; something I thought was impossible before he walked into my life.
I’ve been hurt.
I’ve been saved.
And I’ve found hope.
I thought my story was written that night, but now I know it was only a new beginning. Until one secret turns my world upside down…
Again.
About the Author
Lisa De Jong is a wife,
mother and full-time number cruncher who lives in the Midwest. Her writing
journey involved insane amounts of coffee and many nights of very little sleep
but she wouldn't change a thing. She also enjoys reading, football and music.
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Prologue
When you live in a
small town, there’s not much to do on a Friday night after a football game. When the
season started that year, some of the seniors at my high school decided that we
should all have a bonfire after each game. It was really an excuse to drink and
hook-up: two things I wasn’t interested in, but I always went to hang out with
my friends anyway.
That’s where I was that night.
The night I retreated into darkness, where the night sky had no stars, the day
had no sun, and all hope was drained from my body.
The night my life ended.
The night my life ended.
And Beau Bennett wasn’t there. If he had been, he would’ve saved me, just
like he always did. He was grounded that night for staying out past
curfew the Friday before;
in fact, it’s the only weekend I remember Beau ever being grounded.
Life is a series of coincidences and that
night, coincidence screwed me over.
I was there with Morgan, my best friend since third grade. She was dating
the Senior Class President at the time and it didn’t take long before they
disappeared, leaving me huddled near the fire with some of the other kids from
my school. I felt completely comfortable being alone because I’ve known
most of these people since I had moved here when I was five. That’s one
of the nice things about small towns.
Or so I thought.
I was sitting with my arms wrapped around myself, trying to warm what the fire
couldn’t, when Drew Heston sat down next to me. My stomach did a
somersault; I mean, Drew was a senior. Mr. Football, as everyone called
him. He was the local hero, the type of guy who would have a billboard
outside of town someday. It didn’t hurt that he looked amazing with his
short dark hair, light green eyes and broad shoulders.
I had secretly crushed on him since the day I
first walked into the doors of my high school. There was something about
the way he walked the halls with his head held high that commanded every girl’s
attention, including mine. I’d never talked to him or even made eye
contact with him, for that matter, but there he was, sitting next to me that
night in front of the fire. I couldn’t believe it. Things like that
didn’t happen to Kate Alexander.
“Hey, Kate, how’ve you been?” he asked, his
eyes burning into the side of my head. I couldn’t bring myself to look at
him. Just being near him made me lose all comprehension of the English
language.
“Fine,” I mumbled, biting down on my lower
lip. A shiver ran through my body like a freight train as I finally
glanced in his direction.
“Were you at my game tonight?” he asked,
bumping my shoulder with his. I could feel the heat coming off his
muscular body and it made me blush.
My thoughts drifted back to the third quarter
when Drew threw the ball to his star receiver Jackson Reid, who, at the time,
was surrounded by defenders. My heart raced with excitement as I watched
Jackson and three members of the other team jump up to catch the ball at the
same time. In the end, Jackson came out victorious because Drew threw it
right into his hands. It was nothing short of amazing, yet for Drew, it
was completely normal.
“You were great,” I replied, nervously
reaching up to tighten my ponytail. A breeze blew through and a few
raindrops fell from the sky. I ran my hands up and down my arms in an attempt
to chase the chill from my body, but it didn’t help.
“Are you cold?” he asked, scooting his body
even closer to mine. The way he was looking at me sent butterflies
through my stomach. It wasn’t like I was an outcast at school, but I wasn’t one
of the elite popular girls that guys like Drew usually spent their time
on.
“A little. I forgot my jacket at home,” I
replied, feeling a few more raindrops fall on my cheek.
He stood up and reached for my hand.
“Come on. I have an extra sweatshirt in the house you can borrow.”
The party was being held at his house since
his parents had gone out of town that weekend. I hesitated for a minute
before placing my hand in his. I knew of him, but I didn’t really know
him. It wasn’t the first time I’d been to his house, but it was the first time
I’d been inside. I felt a little uneasy, but I still trusted him. I
didn’t have any reason not to.
Drew’s house was old, but it had been well
maintained with a fresh coat of paint and a wraparound porch. He opened
the front door, never loosening his grip on my hand as he moved us
forward. My attention was so focused on the contemporary paint colors and
beautiful cherry wood floors, it barely registered that we were heading
upstairs.
I watched as he took a key out of his pocket
to unlock one of the doors that lined the second story hallway. He must
have noticed the way I was looking at him because his lips turned up on the
sides. “I don’t like anyone to be in my room but me,” he said, pushing
the door open.
I nodded, following him inside. Did I
feel a little uncomfortable stepping into Drew Heston’s bedroom?
Yes. Did I think for one moment that I shouldn’t be there?
No. I’d known him for years. Everyone knew him and thought the
world of him.
When he closed the door and locked it, I felt
my heart rate pick up. I watched him glance around the room, following his eyes
with mine. The walls were a deep navy blue with various football posters
covering them. And I’ll never forget how it smelled like cologne had been used
to cover up the stench of his used gym clothes.
I’d only been in one boy’s bedroom
before and Beau’s hardly counts…he’s one of my best friends. Drew remains
still, staring at me with glossed over eyes and, suddenly, being there didn’t
feel right. “Can you find that sweatshirt? I should probably get back
outside before Morgan comes looking for me.”
“Oh yeah, give me a sec,” he said, moving to
dig through a drawer in his dresser. I walked to the window at the other
end of the room and looked down at the diminishing fire. The rain was
falling faster against the glass making it harder to see in the distance, but
it looked like everyone had left their spots by the fire. I really needed
to hurry up and find Morgan before she left without me.
The house was completely quiet, sending a
chill down my spine. I closed my eyes and listened to Drew’s footsteps
moving closer to me, my heart beating faster every time I heard the rubber
soles of his shoes against the floorboards. I just wanted to get out of
there. Everything about being inside his room felt wrong and I wanted to escape
it. Going up to his bedroom was a bad idea…going to that party without
Beau was a huge mistake.
His footsteps continued to get closer as I
spun on my heels to head towards the door. I was greeted with dark eyes
and a vacant stare. This was not the Drew I thought I knew. I
wanted to run out of this house and never look back but he was blocking my path.
“I’m going to wait outside. It’s getting warm in here,” I lied, motioning
toward his door.
He didn’t say a word as he pressed his body to
mine, completely closing any gap that remained between us. My hands were
sweaty and my knees felt like they were made for paper dolls.
“Drew.” It was like he was in a trance and it was scaring the hell out of
me.
“It’s raining outside, Kate,” he said,
reaching his hand up to cup my cheek. I stepped back out of his grasp, but he
followed me. It wasn’t long before my back was against the wall.
Even if I wanted to leave, it was too late. His hands rested on the wall,
caging me in with his arms. “Mm, you smell so good,” he growled, pressing
his lips to my neck. His touch forced me to tilt my head in the other direction.
I felt helpless.
“Drew, please, just let me go. I really
need to find Morgan,” I cried. My whole body was shaking from a fear
unlike I’d ever felt before. It was paralyzing. I just wanted to
run out the door as fast as I could and never look back, but I was stuck.
He ignored me, running his lips down my jaw
line. I turned my head to fight, but he followed my movements. “What’s
the matter, Kate? I see the way you look at me. You want this as
much as I do,” he said with a husky voice that sent more panic through my
already tense body. I used the little bit of fight I had left in me to
push on his chest but he didn’t move. Not even an inch.
“Let me go,” I pleaded. His right hand
came down to grip my hip hard as he roughly pressed his lips to mine. The
force of his kiss sent pain to my lips and all I could taste was the mix of my
blood and the alcohol on his breath.
When his hand found the bottom of my shirt and
started to work the material up my bare stomach, I tried to move my legs
forward but he was so much bigger and stronger than me. If anything, my
attempts to push him away were only making things worse.
He gripped my wrists tightly and pulled me
over to his bed, pushing me onto my stomach. I tried to pull my arms
loose, but it caused pain to shoot through my wrists. I’ve never felt more
terrified in my whole life. He continued to hold my arms behind my back
and pinned my legs down with his knees.
“HELP,” I yelled as loud as I could through my
panic and tears.
He clamped his hand over my mouth, yanking my
head back until my neck ached. “Everyone’s outside. No one’s going to
hear you.”
That was it. I was trapped under him,
alone with no one to save me. All the fight I had was drained from my
body, and the chances of anyone pulling me out of this hell were getting
slimmer by the minute. Tears rolled down my face, soaking his bedspread while I
fixated on the raindrops hitting the window. He forced my jeans down so they
were left slung around my left ankle. When I heard him working at his belt
buckle, I felt like I couldn’t breathe anymore. I’d never been exposed
like that and it wasn’t at all what I wanted. I was saving myself for
someone special and Drew was taking it from me. I gasped for air but I
couldn’t get any into my lungs. I tried to scream again but no sound came out.
I felt him pressed against my backside and it
made me want to throw up. “STOP,” I screamed, trying again to free myself
from his hold but he was too strong.
He let out a hushed chuckle from behind.
“Are you going to give up?”
“Please, don’t,” I begged again. It was
my last chance and I knew it. He didn’t respond and when I heard the
sound of foil paper ripping, I squeezed my eyes shut and said a silent
prayer. I wanted it all to be a nightmare I would soon wake up
from. I wanted someone to come through that door and stop it from
happening. I wanted to be anywhere but there.
Except no one was listening to me that
night. I could hear the soft tap of the rain falling on the window, but
the rest of the house was completely silent. I used to like the sound of rain
but Drew took that from me too.
He pressed into me so quickly that pain
erupted through my whole body, sending a deafening scream into the darkness of
the room. I squeezed my eyes shut, feeling like I was drowning with no
way to get to the surface. I’ve never felt such intense physical and
emotional pain all at once. It was the absolute worst moment of my
life.
It still is.
He didn’t stop. Not when I
screamed. Not when I cried. He kept invading my body with each and every
thrust, killing me a little more inside each time. It hurt more to fight
it so I remained still, continuing to stare at the droplets that rolled down
the window. He grunted as he continued to shred my soul to pieces and I tried my
best to block it out. I didn’t need to have his words locked into my
memory forever when I already had to live with the feel of him inside of
me. I knew I’d never be the same after what he did to me.
I’m not sure how long I was in the room, but
it felt like an eternity. My whole life flashed before me as I was
overcome with grief. For the rest of my life, I would always regret going
up to that room with Drew Heston. I could never get that day back or a
lot of the other things he took from me.
The most important thing I lost was my entire
sense of self. It took seventeen years to build my foundation and it took
mere minutes to tear it down.
I hate him.
The old Kate is gone...and she’s never coming
back.
And I’ll always hate when it rains.
Thank you for sharing! <3
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